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Monday, May 29, 2006
So the mystery caller called again last night, this time picked up the phone, and he called me babydoll. I said who is this, he said this is Tom, do you remember me??? So i was so discombobulated that i hung up the phone.. ill probably get another call tonight.. no doubt in my mind... >.<
Then after that, i thought someone was breaking in, and i hollered really loud and proceeded down stairs with my boxcutter, only to find out that my moms cell phone battery was going dead.. thats what i heard.. lol. yea my blonde came out last night.. So i ended up sleeping down here. But i am going upstairs in a min a going back to bed.. cause i am tired..
eaither that or i am going to make muffins......... hmmm.....i dunno.. well ttyl..
Luv Melissa
Posted at 08:43 am by babybluepoet35
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
I have been sitting here all day.. well two hours of it i was upstairs sleep ing.. but now i am going back to sleep.. Dad is all grr.. he already told me that he is going ot be on here all day tomorrow, so i probalby wont be on till late. even if i decide to get on at all... Ann never called me back... sandra hasent even tried to call me.. I have spent alot of time on Myspace, and i commented a hole lot of people, and changed my background, and picture...
but thats about all that i have done today...
So i am going to get off of here i think.. and write more prolly tomorrow night..
Luv
Melissa
Posted at 09:31 pm by babybluepoet35
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I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your INHIBITIONS
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way
oh, oh
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
(x2)
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live you life with arms wide open
Today is where you book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
the rest is still unwritten
Posted at 09:25 pm by babybluepoet35
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I wrote a two page entry last night, and AOL shut down on me before i could save it. I got so disgusted that I talked to Chris for a little bit then i went to bed. Right now i am waiting for mom and dad to call me when they get to church, so i can get a shower. I went to bed last night around 1 and woke up around 2:30ish tossing and turining because my hands and arms were throbbing. So i havent got much sleep. Thank god i am off tomorrow.
I love it when i am here alone. Its so good to have total peace and quiet for just a little while. It gives me time to just think and be calm. Even though i am doing something im not supposed to be doing right now.. but its ok. I called Ann this morning, she is still not feeling well. She did get her medicene yesterday. I am glad of that, i hate to see her sick, and Princess isent helping any. Ann's son Christian turnes 9 tomorrow. He is getting big, when i first meet him he was eaither 6 or seven.. Now he is almost up to my neck. He is such a cute kid. He want to be a docter or a Lawer, I told him to go for it. I wish i would have, if i wanted to i could have mad the Academic Honers.. I could have been in the top of my class. But my dumb ass choose not to. if i ever get into Colledge, i am going to try my damdest to get into the top of the class. I know i can do it..
Well they just called so i am going to go take a shower... ~*~*~*~*~ ^.^
15 min later...
Ok so i feel alot better now. ^.^ Yesterday was so fun when i was at work.. No one was there, just me and mom and of course cathy and alan my bosses. Heather was in Flordia, Wanda just got back from Vegas, but she is still on vacation... and Laura.. it was her weekiend off.. Wanda IM'd me last night, and she just couldent grip the concept that i was happy al day yesterday. O well. Im not in the Family, so im not worring about it. Well i guess i better go, and get some things done... Ill write more later.
Luv Melissa
Posted at 09:49 am by babybluepoet35
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Friday, May 26, 2006
:::tired, tired.. so very tired..:::
yea so i am going to bed.. I have had a long busy day... and I am so tired....
plus i will be the only on there tomorrow.. heather is in Florida, Wanda is in Vegas.... laura is off... and there you go.. 10 hours.. by myself.. unless mom comes in.. yay... well i got to go,,, ttly..
Luv
Melissa
Posted at 09:04 pm by babybluepoet35
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
you know what, i was reading the AOL news on my computer just now and there giving the Dixie Chicks Such a hard time because of the coments that they made about Bush and such.. Even Reba threw a punch at them at the Country Music Awards. They need to leave them alone, they are just practicing there right of free speach. I give em props!!! i really do. They;ve bot the balls to say what they mean and be real about it... And that aient going to stop me from buying there CD's ... to me this is getting childish. Here are some of the things she has said...
''Just so you know, we're ashamed the president of the United States is from Texas.''
-- Dixie Chick Natalie Maines, at a London concert in March 2003
So there ashamed.. thats there feelings.....
The war is going on, and it has been sence 2001.. and the person that they were sent to get got away, and somehow we got saddhem hussain, and the boyZ out there on the front lines are dying everyday..
''I apologize to President Bush because my remark was disrespectful. I feel that whoever holds that office should be treated with the utmost respect.''
-- Maines in March 2003
ok, so she never dissed the president as far as im concerned.. I have no problem with the man myself.. hell i voted for him.. The point that i am trying to make is that she shouldent have to apologize for what they feel.. just because people are getting all pissy.. f that..
''I apologized for disrespecting the office of the president. But I don't feel that way anymore. I don't feel he is owed any respect whatsoever.''
-- Maines in a May TIME story
again her opinion, back to my whole freedom of speech.. I just think that its crazy that people cant say what they mean... and the Raido Stations have quit playing there music... thats childish also...
''I'd rather have a smaller following of really cool people ... than people that have us in their five-disc changer with Reba McEntire and Toby Keith.''
-- Dixie Chick Martie Maguire, in a May TIME story
I have nothing aginst Reba or Toby.. but there are some people that say they dont liek reba caus ehse is agaist Guns.. and there is some people who probably dont liek toby.. but there not on the news gosspiing about it.. Hell, id prefer a smaller following....
''If the Dixie Chicks can sing with their foot in their mouths, surely I can host this sucker.''
-- Reba McEntire, at the Country Music Awards Tuesday
First of all .. I watched the CMA awards, and Reba's jokes were not funny at all.. me and mom just looked at each other like WTF!!!. and to make a cheep pop like that at the CMA awards.. now thats disrespectful.....
Sure the Dixie Chics to some people might have been disrespectful to the president... and are aginst the war... but at least they have the gumption to say so out in public. as far as im concerned.. right or not.. There music is excellent, and they Rock.....
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So a couple night ago me and chris were talking and he agreed with me on how it gets worse each generation, and how that technology is going to be the end of us....
Just think about it, a long time ago, like in your grandparents, granparents days.. people ate lard, burtchered there own pigs, drank fresh milk and grew there own vegatables... canned... even used homeade remadies.. and you never heard of any of them falling over with a heartattack...
The food now a days is full of all kinds of preservatives.. that they dident have back then.. and as time goes on those presertivies take a hold on every new generation.. Take me for example... I am 21 and i already have acid reflux, corpral tunnel, and a touch of autheritis. My dad dident have any of that till he was in his late thirities.. In food for example... you might have lets say corn.. and instead of it saying "corn, water and salt" it has 50 other things in it that you cant even pronounce... musless know what it means..
and Bottled Water is my favorite.. Do you know that tap water is better fpr you than bottled water.. and of you choose to drink one, it should be Deer Park. A friend of mine had her water tested and the Dannon that she was drinking was nasty... and her Tap water was fine..
But they want you to think that Bottled is better.. but its not.
Drugs are crazy now a days.. people are becoming ammune to the strong pain meds.. its just not doing them any good anymore... and then i hear of a medicne today called Lipator, that is for Cholestrol.. and the people who was talking about it said that it made them hurt so bad that they coulden even pick up a gallon of milk or walk.. a crippling effect.. basically.. and that was arond 5 people that told me that today...
Then there is the testing on the Lab rats that say that granola causes cancer in them.. YET your supposed to eat it becuase its healthy... Maybe you werent ment to eat it at all.. Smoking is somthing else that kills me.. its got everything in ii.. from nicotine, to cynide, to Ammonia... and they leagalize that.. But they wont leagalize Weed and its a natural Plant, that has no addatives, and from what i hear.. you cant get addicited to it..
I just dont get it.. at all. What i am basically getting at is its what they put in all the shit today that is making us sick... Like Vitamin D Milk.. the ingredients cant just say, "milk from betzy the cow out back..
it says "Pasteurized Homogenized Milk and Vitamin D3" WTF I remember when i was little we would get farm fresh eggs, they never came with a experation date.. ever! we ate them till they were gone.. Now a days you get a dozen in the store and your lucky if they last a week n a half without going sour...
the everything is being run by computers and Surgerys... SURGERYS... are being run by robotic arms.. what would happen if one of those robots tripped out and killed someone.. I dotn think i could let a robot cut me.. and preform open heart you know thats stupid.. ..... no one is relying on instinct, or gut reaction anymore.. it is based on the popular ceansus..
it makes n sence to me....
a girl that i work with had this spray bottle of medicine for her teath.. and on the back of the bottle it said "this product can be swallowed, but we do not recomend swallowing this product" At that hypocritial...
Another thing that is getting on my nervouse is everyone getting pissed off at the Mexicans,... you know what.. there people too.. they bleed like us and they have feelings like us.. there just like us.. except for a different language..
any race for taht matter, ..My best firiend is a Mexican.. and i luv her.. TE AMO MUCHO!!! so what if they come here.. so what if they cant speak english.. americans go there all the time and dont speak any Spanish.. but they welcome them....people beed to get a grip on reality really they do.. I remember watching TV and this recist guy said something about that every one needs to go back to were they came from.. Well if i recall.. Indians were here first and the English intruded on there land.. the world is a Mass of Dirt and water.. why cant we all just share it and get along.. I love everyone.. as long as they dont dis me or lie to me... or use me. I dont know why people are so cruel.. and that is one thing that i dont know if that gets worse by generation, or better.. I just hope that its better... if there werent no colors in the world .. there wouldent be any rainbows..
well i guess ive ranted all i can..
laterZ
Posted at 10:12 pm by babybluepoet35
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Posted at 07:09 am by babybluepoet35
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
well i was going to write something that chris agreeed with me on. But Im not, i forgot that the last American Idol is on and I am watchng it, to see who the winners are..
Its all Anns fault, i went from Hating it.. to loving it and now im addicted to it! lol
I dont like Taylor because i think that he is too cocky and too much of a show off. BUT he can sing, and he is a good performer that is why i think that he should win... BUT the other chic is hott, and she can sing, and she is also a good performer and just becuase i dont like Taylor, thats why i think She should win.
Ok so Taylor Just sand "in the ghetto" by Elvis and butchered it.. there went a vote LOL..
lol.. thats FUNNY... I hope that tomorrow is going to be a good day... I Apologized to Ann, cause i said.. "ieverytime i cal i find something to bitch about.. " lol.. she replyed "i cant wait to get a job so i can bitch about it" rotflmffao..
I absoulty love gay guys.. they rock i just had to say that cauze one was just on tv and they are soo cute.. lol.. I just went on Playgirl . com cause i heard that Chris, who is On American Idol is going to be in that Mag. i got that information from a not so reaiable source, but i thought id still go on there and take a gander.. and he wasent on there.. but another hot boi was .. MEOW but anyways.. i am going to end this speical edition of American idol LOL. ttyl
melissa
Posted at 08:54 pm by babybluepoet35
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Well its Ann's birthday today and we dident get to do anything.. She told me this mornig that she is sick, and i know she is.. pretty much everyone there is sick.. So yea..
My Birthday is going to suck ass this year I can already see it.. I think I am just going to go to work that day... I need the money anyways.. fuck it....
Then there is someone calling my cell phone every night between 12 and 5 in the morning, leaving me pages to call them.. Last night was different though, they left me a love song... **a hour later** I am trying to find the lyrics to it but i am having no luck.. but it says "I wanna wanna wanna be your baby boy" and "I just want to lay you down". and "i got to call you up and tell you how i feel in the middle of the night..." thats not in order, thats prolly not how it goes but thats what i heard, the key parts anyways.. I dont understand why i cant find it on a lyrics place.. I have tried for a hour. But anyways, its weird.. i really think this person has me mixed up with someone else... But if i calls tonight im going to answer and be like WTF. Ya know?!?!? random mystery caller..
Well mom and dads home cause no one was at the church... so there went my quiet evening.. So this entry might be cut short... In other news I did wak up at 12:30 p.m. this morning... wow huh, Im usually the one who gets up at 8 in the morning..... but not this morning, and dad was just peachy as ever..
Well i am going to end this and elaborate on something that chris actually agreed with me about on a totally different entry.. then i am going to eat Dominoes and go to bed.. cause i am tired.. and all in a pissy mood.. but knowing how i am, i will prolly be up till late..
Luv
Melissa
Posted at 05:46 pm by babybluepoet35
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
ive been sitting here
night after night
wondering why
i keep writing this tale
of a women, of a child
of the drama,
of the love...
of the life i live
of everthing...
when nobody could care less....
Ive been wondering
for a long time...
am i crazy for staying here..
and continuing this fight...
and then I come up with the same answer,
every night....
Im still sitting here.. Arent I???
when everyone goes down there own road..
and leaves you behind....
you continue your journey,
you'll continue it...
I guess my journey is here..
but it dosent bother me none....
and i wonder why...
and the same answer pops into mind..
Im still sitting here... Arent I ???
Posted at 10:44 pm by babybluepoet35
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